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Sea Of Sorrow, 8/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, implied guy love eventually.
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AN: You thought I died, didn't you. : D It took longer than usually.. Well, I have a busy year. Better this than nothing, yeah? Now then.

Well, this story is slowly heading towards the end (I've planned it to take up 11 chapters in total). I was planning to do an ambiguous ending at first, but then the need of actual romance kicked in. So yeah, now I'm going to ask you, dear readers, what do YOU want? An ending that can be interpreted as either friendship or romance, or do you want a clear implying of gayness at the epilogue? There won't be anything hardcore anyway, so I'm really fine with either way, I just can't make up my damn mind lol. So, please let me know your opinion while you're reviewing. :3 (Yes, I want reviews!)
Also, you got a longass chapter the previous time, so now this is shorter. : D
Warnings: Some actually crack approach and lack of plot that has to do with anyone else than Lavi and Kanda. : O

Could it be that Kanda was still so...expressing on his opinion because he had something childish left in him? )

The Crystal Ship
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Title
: The Crystal Ship
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: Lavi doesn't believe in fairytales, but Kanda seems to be living in one. Can the warmth of a kiss break the crystal prison of solitude and destroy the poison apple?. DGM with parallels to 'Snow White'. Dreamy drabble.
Rating: K+/T
Genre: Romance/Fantasy

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Woot, a surprise fic! I know I haven't announced I was gonna end anything soon...but here you go. 4 hours or so. Yay inspiration. Hope you like, I think I was high while writing this. 8D

Happy 9-9-9 date, if your day was not filled with awesome magic, maybe at least this will help. : D

 

And in that exact tale, there was something drawing him to it, even though he couldn't tell what it was. )

Sea Of Sorrow 7/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance

Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAVI !! See, I even managed an update for this occasion. : D ...a long one and a weird one...yeah.

AN: Yes, I am a lazy, lazy ass and I can't update on time. Deal with it.

 

The redhead felt mildly offended. Alright, screw 'mildly', he was offended. His most cared-about patient - whom he had thought about day and night and spend most of his time with - had just woken up from a nearly three-year nap, and the first thing he said was an insult.  )

Shame In You
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Any Colour You Like
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HAPPY LAVIYU DAY !! <333

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The fic can also be found here.


Title: Any Colour You Like
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda or Kanda/Lavi
Summary/About: Lavi gives him colors, Kanda gives him stability, and they both simply need each other.
Rating: K+/T
Genre: Romance/Drama/General

Disclaimer: DGM belongs to Katsura Hoshino. The title belongs to Pink Floyd. That song is instrumental though. The lyrics here are created by me.

 

He watches Lavi fight, secretly doing his best to protect him even if he would never admit it. )

I need to stop thinking about DGM before sleep...
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And I thought the dream about feeding chips through the window to a local-beer-company-Tshirt-wearing-GIRAFFE was weird. )

Sea of Sorrow 6/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance

Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KANDA! : D

ANNOUNCEMENT: Welcome to the LaviYu festival, lasting from 6th of June to 10th of August, which circles around the main date, the brand new chosen LaviYu Day, July 8th! Our fandom is definitely worth to have an annual celebration, so don't bail out and join in with the legion! Please read more about this on Live Journal (remove spaces before inserting the link):

http : // community . livejournal . com / rabiyuu / 109560 . html

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AN: Thanks for the feedback guys! I tried to update faster this time, no need to tell that it failed miserably. I guess I just let RL get the better of me. Oh well - better later than never, right? (hides in shame)

And to those who wanted to see more of the game!Alice...I'm sorry, but I'm not basing this fic on the game completely. XD I just took the Wonderland=hallucination-inflicted-by-madness concept from it. XP So yes, Kanda's gonna be stuck with his 'Vorpal Blade'. Just because. :3

...And if Digi doesn't chew out my Lenalee, I'll consider my month complete. : O

Warnings for chapter: Cruelty of Victorian Age hospitals, numerous mad relatives and... I apparently suck at writing Allen? D:

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Kanda nearly fell face-first into the lake. He forced himself not to kick the idiotic Rabbit into the middle of the water body, and turned to him, one corner of his lips turned up however it was twitching.  )

Sea Of Sorrow, 5/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.



As he reached the door, he thought that once again Kanda had followed him with his eyes, but when he looked closer he decided it had to be the play of the shadows of leaves dancing in the wind, and silently walked out. )

Sea Of Sorrow, 4/11
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Title
: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.



 

He looked around, suddenly feeling like he was robbed of all of his senses; there was no wind and his feet made no sound against the rocky white sand; the sun was gleaming but he didn't feel heat. The lake's surface was even as a mirror; not a single wave nor ripple errupted it. )

Sea Of Sorrow, 3/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.



AN: Less Lavi and Kanda interaction this time, but don't worry, it will be compensated soon enough. :3 We get to see a bit more of Allen and Lenalee this time.

 I tried to add a bit more surroundings. Hope it worked.

Anyway, here's the third update.

 

It's sad not to have a name, he thought. It's almost like you don't exist, just worse, because you actually have to get through all the suffering and yet to anyone else, you're not there...an empty space that can feel. )

Sea Of Sorrow, 2/11
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Title: Sea Of Sorrow
Author: Morphine Dementia
Fandom: D.Gray-Man (duh!)
Pairing: Lavi/Kanda (also duh!)
Summary/About: The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. AU (DGM times, but no Exorcist/Akuma stuff), DGM x Alice.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.


AN:
So guess what, I've changed my mind. I will  be posting the chapters on LJ too. Just in case on of the sites breaks down and the other stays...or something like that.

So here it is, the 2nd chapter.

Also, important: I am aware that some of the scene changes doesn't really connect; this is because the Wonderland story is a product of schizophrenic effects caused by drugs. So yes, it's supposed to be that way. I hope it doesn't get in the way of the fic being enjoyable. :3 AND YES, THE MADNESS STARTS NOW!

 

Its voice no longer was dusty; more like...human, and Kanda was sure he had heard it a lot lately, though he wasn't sure when and how exactly. )

Sea Of Sorrow, 1/11
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AN:
So, if you know a videogame called 'American McGee's Alice', you are ought to know what this is all about. This fic is basically a -Man x Alice crossover. The idea of mental asylum just came out from a conversation with Digital_Eon and hikamitz on DGray-Divinity forums. So here is the crazy me, bringing up yet another weird and morbid...uh, whatever. Hope you enjoy this. For some reason, I seem to be writing a lot of insane!Kanda...and I mean, a LOT. Oh well....I kinda invented him. I picked the main roles accordingly to 'Rabbit in Wonderland' doujinshi (I'm sure you know it), but..yeah, if you played THAT Alice game, you basically already know the main concept of this fic. But I would be really grateful if you read it anyway.

Happy Friday the 13th, guys! :D

Summary: The Black Order Asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family had become victims of a fire...or was it racistic revolution? Wrecked with guilt of surviving and frustrated with his powerlessness at that time, he appears to have no sense or emotions left; but a young idealistic doctor believes he can cure any patient assigned to him and will not give up until he wins against the madness or until the last hope is crushed. AU (but the same timeframe), eventually mild Lavi x Kanda.

Warnings: Angst, madness, a bit of violence, mentions of various abuse (the author does NOT support any of it, if that's not clear), light shonen-ai at the end.

Disclaimer: -Man and its characters belong to Katsura Hoshino. Alice stories and their concept together with quotes provided, belongs to Lewis Carol. The Alice game concept and level titles belong to American McGee. 'Taking Tea in Dreamland' belong to Chris Vrenna. 'Sea of Sorrow' and the four lines of lyrics belong to Alice In Chains.

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Sea Of Sorrow

You open fire - and your mark was true

You open fire - I aim my smiling skull at you

I live tomorrow, you I'll not follow

As you wallow, in the sea of sorrow

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Prologue

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"Nii-san....can you read me a bedtime tale?"

Little Asian girl looked up at her brother, her big dark eyes shining hopefully. She looked only about five years old; her brother seemed to be in his teen years. He smiled a little at her. "English, Yuki. You have to get used to it.."

They all had to get used to it. People around here weren't especially friendly to immigrants as it was, and their best chance of blending in was to use the local language as well and as much as possible. They wanted harmony and peace, after all.

The girl pouted a bit, but then gazed up again. "Please? Big brother?"

"Fine."

He started walking towards the stairs, and turned back a little surprised as his sister stayed in the same place.

"Aren't you coming? I said it was fine."

She raised her hands, sticking out her tongue a little. "Carry me."

He blinked, then another faint smile appeared on his lips as he walked to the child and picked her up, with gentleness that didn't match his words. "Whatever."

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"...Then she set to work nibbling at the mushroom - she had kept a piece of it in her pocket - till she was a bout a foot high; and then - she found herself at last in the beautiful garden, among the bright flower-beds and the cool fountains.

That's it, and for real this time, now go to sleep. I have no idea why you keep making me read it to you - you know every line of this book anyway."

He never knew why she loved this foreign tale so much. Ever since they moved, she hadn't asked for a Japanese one. And it was the same every evening.

The girl giggled a bit at how her brother seemed to be displeased but only after he actually read her the story. "Because I like when you read it, Nii-san," she chirped and hugged her plush rabbit doll, pulling the blanket up to her nose.

"Tch..."

"Thank you very much!"

He put the book on the night-table, and pecked his sister's forehead before putting out the lamp. "Night."

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When he finished the essay he had to do for school, it was already past midnight. He didn't even change and slumped onto his bed - what looked more like a mattress on the ground, because he still tried to follow the traditions of his home country - and fell asleep almost immediately.

While he slept, he thought that he heard voices of some kind, but his mind decided it was a part of his dream and he didn't wake up. Eventually though, he felt some kind of strange smell.

What?

He sat up, opening his eyes, only to see that the room was full of smoke. WHAT??!!

He mechanically grabbed his grandfather's sword that was laying next to his bed and ran out. In the hallway, his way was blocked by a wall of flames. The hallway and the other side of the house was completely taken up by fire.

"Yuki!"

He thought he heard something between the flames.

"Father? Mother?"

Then he heard faint voices...faint voices that he couldn't do anything to help. He widened his eyes in horror, finally understanding what was happening.

He stared at the fire for a brief moment, then ran forwards, through the flames, ignoring the heat, burns and pain, determined and desperate to reach the room in the second floor before the burning staircase would fall apart.

 

After yet another lighting flashed and Kanda opened his eyes again, the rabbit was closer, almost if it had fallen from the pillow onto his shoulder. Even in a state like that, Kanda felt a chill go through his body. )

Grind
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Brain Damage
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LaviKanda/KandaLavi fanfiction by Morphine Dementia
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This entry will be updated as new fics will be written. All written by Dementia / Morphine Dementia / Dementia Morphea . The fics can also be found on my FFnet account: [Morphine Dementia on FFnet].

Most of the one-shots are somewhat abstract or drabbles. Unless pointed out otherwise, the endings are all good, despite the usual sometimes a bit sickly or angsty atmosphere.

Fandom: D.Gray-Man
Pairing: LaviKanda / KandaLavi
Author: Morphine Dementia
Warnings (for all fiction): yaoi / shonen ai. In other words, love between two guys. Only implied, unless mentioned otherwise.


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Series:
These are the multi-chapter fics written by yours truly.


S e a ~ O f ~ S o r r o w

Summary/About:
The Black Order asylum retrieves a new patient - a young man whose family died in a fire. Wrecked with guilt of surviving, he appears to have no senses or emotions left, but a young idealistic doctor believes he can take this challenge and cure him. Victorian age AU.
Rating: T+
Genre: Spiritual/Drama/Hurt-Comfort/Romance
Warnings: A constant lack of sanity, mentions of various abuse, implied guy love eventually.
Status: In progress

Read on: [FFnet] ~ [LJ]

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One-Shots:
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The Trilogy: Slipping into the Darkness
These three fics can be read as separate one-shots (and I'd recommend it that way), however, after finishing the second one I noticed they do form a trilogy. And a rather tragic one. So if you and angst aren't always together, once you read 'Poison', imagine the story of that one-shot ends just like that.

[The Trilogy in one place]



P o i s o n  (1st part/separate fic)

Summary/About: Lavi's long-time obsession with his best friend is destroying his supposed way of life. Once it grows into something more, Lavi starts his long journey into Kanda's heart, that seems to be locked from everyone.
Rating: T+
Genre: Angst/Humor/Romance
Warnings: Implied sex.
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ] ~ [FFnet]


B r a i n ~ D a m a g e  (2nd part/separate fic)

Summary/About: Kanda is slowly slipping towards madness, directing his rage to the ones closest to him; while Lavi's unconditional love for the samurai evens them out even in the point of insanity. Putting up with impossible treatment, Lavi still gets his share of love, even if his future as a Bookman is in danger.
Rating: M
Genre: Angst/Romance
Warnings: Violence, non-explicit description of sex. Oh and, uke!Lavi (not much of that these days, eh?).
Status: Complete
[illustration for the fic on DA]

Read on: [LJ] ~ [FFnet]


G r i n d  (3rd and final part/separate fic)

Summary/About: Lavi is no longer the one everyone remembers, now he's Junior, obsessed with successing the Bookman. Kanda sinks deeper and deeper into the self-inflicted madness, and there is only one person that can still save him: Lavi, the 49th.
Rating: M
Genre: Angst/Spiritual/Romance
Warnings: Non-graphic description of sex, violence, blood, madness.
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ] ~ [FFnet]


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Independent One-Shots:

Short fics that have no concept with each other (except for our beloved pairing.) They are the sweet little separate stories, that have LaviYu in the main spotlight.


N o ~ E x c u s e s

Summary/About: Kanda has a soft side that no one knows about, but sometimes he lets the curtain slip in front of a certain redhead. Even if apologizing is something more agonizing than death in his book.
Rating: T
Genre: Romance/General
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ] ~ [FFnet]


A n y ~ C o l o u r ~ Y o u ~ L i k e

Summary/About: Lavi gives him colors, Kanda gives him stability, and they both simply need each other.
Rating: K+/T
Genre: Romance/Drama/General
Warnings: Implied gayness? 8D
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ] ~ [FFnet]


S h a m e ~ I n ~ Y o u

Summary/About: Lavi's troublemaking earns him and Kanda a punishment of laundry duty. And if there's something Kanda won't let Lavi to get away with, it's staring at Lenalee's underwear.
Rating: M
Genre: Romance/Humor
Warnings: Non-explicit mansex.
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ][FFnet]


T h e ~ C r y s t a l ~ S h i p

Summary/About: Lavi doesn't believe in fairytales, but Kanda seems to be living in one. Can the warmth of a kiss break the crystal prison of solitude and destroy the poison apple?..
Rating: T for kiss
Genre: Romance/Fantasy
Status: Complete

Read on: [LJ][FFnet]



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One-shots crossed with Allen x Lenalee
The one-shots that include both LaviYu and AllenLena as main pairings. So to read those, it's better if you like them both.

B l a c k ~ N i g h t

Summary/About: Halloween party in the Black Order! Allen decides it's the perfect opportunity to cheer Lenalee up; but Lavi decides to join them, despite Kanda's obvious hatred for everything that is 'fun'. And naturally, the redhead will make sure to take his grumpy friend with. Funny chaos ensures!
Genre: CRACK/Comedy/Romance
Rating: T for kiss.
Status: Complete

Read on: [FFnet]



W e ~ C a n ~ W o r k ~ I t ~ O u t

Summary/About: What happens between the four friends, when there is a lack of space to sleep on a mission? How will they deal with such an obstacle? A humorous CRACK story with hintings of Allen x Lenalee and Kanda x Lavi; mostly friendship with a bit of innuendos.
Genre: CRACK/Comedy/Romance
Rating: K+/T
Status: Complete

Read on: [FFnet]



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Demon's Eye
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Anime/Manga: D.Gray-Man
Fandom: Allen x Lenalee, hints of Lavi x Kanda
Summary: Allen's eye is freaking out again and Lenalee is trying to comfort him...and maybe a bit more.
Warnings: Innocent little kiss, implied LaviYu (I just had to put it in..); an ending that can be interpreted in different ways, and in general - nothing to cover your eyes from. And yes, it's sort of incoherent...whatever I try to write, it comes out like that. xD
Disclaimer: I do not own D.Gray-Man or any of it's characters, (if I did, there would be even more  YuLavi in it and I'd be too cool to come here and write like a simple mortal..) it all belongs to Katsura Hoshino. That said; the song title is borrowed from Deep Purple. And..that's all, I believe.

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Allen Walker was a human. He was a bit cursed, but still definitely human. Only humans could get cursed on this Earth, only humans had to bear with it and carry all the pain that came with. )

Poison
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No Excuses
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And with this, my fiction breaks into LJ. I hope I'm up to that, but it's for people to decide.
The fic can also be found here.

Manga/Anime: D.Gray-Man
Fandom: LaviKanda / KandaLavi
Summary: Who knew Kanda Yuu actually knows how to apologize? Definitely not Allen. And definitely no one expected Lavi to be the one who can get on Kanda's good side like that. But there are many more things between them that the others aren't supposed to know...
Warnings: Light shonen-ai. Little innocent kiss, that's all. However, if you don't like the idea of a love relationship between two guys, I strongly advise you to stop reading right here.
Disclaimer: Lavi, Kanda and D.Gray-Man with all its characters belong to Katsura Hoshino. Song "No Excuses", together with the few provided lines of lyrics, belong to Alice In Chains.
By the way, that last line actually gave me the idea of this fic, since Lavi really likes defending and explaining Kanda's actions; mostly in fandom, but in the series likewise. Check out the song, it's pretty. x3


Some people think that Kanda is psychotic. It simply isn't true; he just doesn't want random people gathering around him. )

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